Highly Annoyed

Today I was highly annoyed... I woke up annoyed and it just carried over into the rest of my day. I read my email...which is a running joke in my office, and became even more annoyed by one of the emails there. This did not lighten my disposition one bit... if anything it made me want to slap a bitch! any bitch! especially that bitch!

Why am I so annoyed... well a few reasons...
1. Everyone expects everything fucking yesterday... two days ago.
2. I'm expected to know the rules without being told... how the hell does this work?
3. I'm supposed to smile and nod when things aren't right... for the other person or the greater good.
4. I'm always expected to make the sacarifice (or at least I feel I am.)
5. I'm not supposed to be angry about... any of it... I should just take it on the chin!

I get real tired of this at times...

One of these days I'm going to tell everyone to piss off (hell, who am I kidding? fuck off!) and not be the real nice, sometimes abrasive ( ok, TG!), BUT always real chick. I often need to reign myself in because no one would like me if I said everything that came into my head... from my mother to one of the bosses at work. Needless to say I try not to be ruled by my ID 'cause I'd probably be unemployed, friendless, and homeless.

But once...just once I'd love for #1-5 to be the exception and not the rule. I'd love to tell someone screaming "hurry, hurry" to kiss my ass!

I'd love to play mind games with the people that love to play mind games. ONLY BETTER AND LONGER!

I wanna say, " hell no" when shit is twisted and people want me to play along.

I wanna say, " sorry can't do it, I don't know what to tell ya".

And once... just once... I want to be able to explode with all the rage and anger I feel so that everyone will know just how bad my anger can be, and they will remember it, and act accordingly.

I STILL WANNA SLAP A BITCH!